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25 October 2010 @ 05:07 am
[Locked!Blog] - fail!Locked to Dewi  

Dear Diary.

Okay no, that's stupid. This isn't even a diary. It's my stupid Macbook. Um. I don't know. It's 5am and this is the third night that I... just... I can't sleep. I don't know what's wrong with me or that one weird dream I had had something to do with it-- What the hell is Hogwarts. I hated Harry Potter. But... I think I might have something to do with Dewi...

I dunno. It's not like... we've even been dating that long, you know? I'm talking to this thing like it's a human- what's wrong with m But... I miss him. A lot I guess. Um.

Yeah, I sometimes... Think about him sleeping next to me. N-Not anything lewd or anything! But just- there. Cuddling? Yeah, I think I could do cuddling. I've never really done it with anyone cept like... Tuntun; but I think it would be nice. And god knows I can't fucking sleep anyway. I feel so clingy... Dewi's this older professor who's probably had like, a millon relationships and here I am, this stupid little... thing, who's...

Well okay, fess up? Dewi's my first boyfriend. Francis didn't count. WOO. Confessing to a blank, blog... thing. Feels GREAT. Maybe if I just ram my face into the keyboard, it'll feel even better huh? God I'm not even... thinking correctly anymore. This is not time for blogging, it's sleepy time. For fuck's sake...

I just don't want to start crying again I feel so-

Um. Maybe I should write poetry.

That's what girls do when they're... like this right?


So... stupid.

not_whales: All the perfumes of Arabia...not_whales on October 25th, 2010 04:44 pm (UTC)
Lucy-Marie, there is no need to worry. Really... you... you mean a lot to me.